I Have Problems....

Assalamualaikum....

Hello my fellas, today I would like to share with all of you the problems I often face in writing a composition. I never told this to anyone, so this is an exclusive revelation ok.. Mr. Jaferi has come out with a great idea to ask me to write on that topic. It gives me an opportunity to really address the difficulties that occur to me when writing something. I admit that I am not a good writer ( I really mean it). Seriously, I am very worried when it comes to creating a writing piece. Anyway, for those who have comments and suggestions to help me, please do come forward ok.

Firstly, I do not have the flow of idea. In other words, I often experience mind block. This is really important because I realize that it always interferes my 'masterpiece'. Due to this problem, I have to catch up with time in order to finish my writing especially during examination. It makes me feel very unconfident, and I keep rushing my thoughts in order to complete a written work. When this happens, my points become disorganized. Furthermore, I do not have the ability to produce a quality writing. This is an obstacle because it is hard for me to impress my lecturers, and hard for me to discuss an idea well and elaborate. Honestly, this kind of problems really affect my grades.

Secondly, my worst nightmare is poem/literature. I never like this elements of writing. I honestly am amazed with the beautiful words and language in the poems I read but I can't hardly understand it especially the classic one. I am not a creative person so poems/literatures are not my competency. I know that reading can improve my writings but I still think that reading alone cannot help me either. I should create the feeling of like to poetry I guess. But, that seems very hard. For me, it's hard to understand the meaning each poem brings. I admit that some poems have straight forward language, which makes it evidently easy to understand. But, there are certain poems I learn that even after reading it many times, I just could not grasp the meaning that the poem intends to deliver. Should I be a more critical reader in order to understand them?

Lastly, I feel that my English proficiency is really poor. And i think that this fact is the largest contributing factor to all my problems when writing compositions. I would rather kill myself when it comes to submission of assignments. This is because my lack of confidence. But when Mr. Jaferi asked me to create a blog, I found it very interesting. He said that we should not worry about the grammar part, but focus on the idea instead. Truthfully, I really like the idea because it helps me to improvise my flow of idea in writings. Furthermore, it overcomes my problems in lack of confidence. I really enjoy writing blogs eventhough what I had wrote are all craps.